A world away

Solitude sits and stares back at me

My limbs ache with the weight of an age

Bark scorned by the ghosts of trees lays as confirmation at my feet

Here alone I draw from nature that which humanity fails to provide

I wonder where you are …

I no longer feel your breath

I held on longer than I am certain you believe

Beneath my feet there lies more warmth

In winter soil

Than in the darkened memories I am cursed by

Chained by every fractured promise

I have only words to save me

My heart

A world away…

 

^!^

 

Once Upon A Love

You captured me in dark tones

I was intriguing and fragile I am sure

You drew your desires across my skin

Carving with precision kissing away the blood

I fell for you like nothing on earth

A surreal and maddening Love

These memories soaked in sentiment

Give rise to indescribable regret

My heart falls from the balcony of your dissatisfaction

As you alter the negatives

No longer remembering I was always only me

I wonder did you not see in the light of day

Your pictures

Your curiosity

Your assumptions

The way in which you coveted my soul

Were never meant to be a reflection of you

Only raw sketches of what you needed from me

Hanging in your halls

I would never be decoration

I was fragile and darkness and desire served up on pain

Fleeting captivation

I gave you everything I was

Uncertainty and rapture

My throat swells with lack of breath

My heart aches with distance

You captured me in silence

I now want to scream

I was perfect for sketched fragments

Midnight

Daydreams

Poetic Notions

I was but one of your obsessions

Never meant to be enough

^!^

Violet

 

 

My skin is pale

In the twilight

Amongst your roses

I toy with the thorns

Blood flows across my wrist

Forms your name

I smear wishes across my thigh

Cloudy sky

A portrait

I shall love you always

Tattooed across my skin

Scarlet ribbon in my hair

I lay against your door

Waiting for you

My skin white at midnight

Concrete stained with tears

Note in hand

My love for you

Penned for eternity

In Violet

 

~

©EssentialSoulPoetry

Expired

 

We used to have so much to say
You and I
Another time, another place
Before that inevitable fog of time
Caressed our world
Gently at first
An inept separation
Reedemable with those three fractured beeps
Long distance
Eventuality though becomes us all
As it wound and choked
We are speechless now
Except for the languid curl of tongue
Over needy love starved flesh
Is this all that remains
Or is it all we ever really had…

^!^

 

Pieces

 

 

 

 

 

 

There are pieces of me
That float away with indifference
A complex montage of fractured illusion
Pieces of me whisper your name
You collect them and draw them to your heart
I push,and you frustrated turn
You seek to save my soul
I believe… and yet I don’t
Either way
Could you promise I will ever be whole again?
There are pieces of me
Jagged and scarred they arrive at your door
Time and time again
In my mind you leave it open
I smash against the frame
Become unrecognisable damage
Broken pieces
These are the risks we take
Human and incomplete
How will it end?
I sketch examples into the darker shades of you
An offered glimpse into the blackened state of me
I beckoned,and you frustrated ran…
As darker dreams foretold
I lay now in pieces
In the palm of your hand.

©EssentialSoulPoetry

Laying Down

I lay down under the anguish coated sky

It dreams of sun

As it pours with rain

In my dreams it used to wash away that blood stain

The one embedded in old style concrete

Pieces of you now reflections in the sand

Intangible yet suffocating

All at once

I hated it so

Yet did it ever really exist except in my mind ?

I ran my hand along that old guitar

I let four notes fall across my lips

That song I wrote…

I could make you feel beautiful

In my world you,not I were the artist

If only I had known

You painted me only grey

The sky whispered

And wondered how long it should stay silent

I lay quietly feeling lost

I promised forever

After all

^!^

After

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

There is a darkness that runs along my spine

 

It is there as I sleep

 

I feel it as liquid trickling slow against my skin

 

The hush of the night

 

Your breath keeps me warm

 

Yet I remember it

 

Ever present I wait for it to leave

 

Knowing it shall not

 

As I inhale you

 

It covers me

 

A reminder that come morning You’ll be gone

 

No roses by my door

 

A political kiss

 

Yet whispered love unleft upon my cheek

 

What am I now but vulnerable

 

Available

 

Chained by my heart as you walk free

 

The darkness whispers

 

As I drag along behind your smile

 

You blink but twice I am a distant memory

 

I’d cut my heart out for such a luxury

 

Instead

 

Your scent permeates my skin

 

As once again the darkness runs along my spine

 

I close my eyes

 

Barricade to tears

 

^!^